How I wished!

How I wished to be anything, but human,

How I wished to be detached of feelings.

How I wished to be that pigeon that flys away.

How I wished to be that deer that runs through the woods.

How I wished to be that squirrel, who watches everything, but understand nothing.

How I wished to ask Him, to let me choose for myself.

How I wished, never to forgive or forget.

How I wished, never to try to find the meaning of everything.

How I wished, never to have the urge to find love.

How I wished, never to feel weak at heart.

How I wished to die, without knowing how or why?

How I wished ....to be free!

Prithwish Patra.

Blogger's Note : This is my actual suicide note/poem ,though I am not going to suicide.